Doing This

I don't think you approve. I show you my posts, you say very little now. What have i done? What has upset you? You always knew i was this girl. Maybe all the thoughts in my head were just that - thoughts in *my* head.

I love you. You are what i want but i can't help but think of something else out there. I have been this way all my life and only now do i feel like it is a positive thing, not something to weigh me down. I want you with me while i make discoveries.

Was it the post about other girls? Was it the descriptions of her and me and how desperate i sounded? I can't deny any of it. It is raw and true.

Darling don't feel left out. I adore you and your beauty. Please love my openness with you. I need that feeling of total excitement. When you can't think straight and feel totally uninhibited because a desire for pleasure is total and overwhelming. It is essential.

Let me explore this, not alone but with you and your love. It would not be right without you.